Have you ever felt like you know yourself so well but you don’t really know yourself at all? It feels like you’re stuck and don’t know how to release yourself from it. You can’t let go of what no longer serves you because it’s what you’re used to. It’s your comfort zone even when it’s uncomfortable because deciding to walk away from it means everything is going to change for you. It means you’re closing this chapter and moving into the unknown. The unknown is a scary place for most people. You have no idea what to do, where to go, or even who you want by your side during the process. You get so stuck in trying to create a perfect picture that it becomes a complete disaster.
You want to surrender and let go but in your mind you’re like how the fuck do I do that? How do I shut down these voices in my head telling me to go all different directions? How do I quiet the noise of outsiders having an opinion on every move I make? How do I not let their opinions affect me? How do I just feel silence and peace? How!!! You scream because the frustration, pain, anger, sadness, resentment, guilt, and rejection is suffocating every part of your being. Everything drowning you at once and all you hear is everyone telling you to breathe but it feels impossible to catch your breath. Life is overwhelming you and decisions feel like heavy weights.
So you just collapse into the darkness. You cry and cry. You ask God why do I deserve this. Please help me. Please make this better. I want happiness and peace why can’t I have it? Why don’t I feel good? Why am I dealing with the same cycle over and over again? It’s as if I’m stuck on the same rollercoaster and there’s no way to get off.
How many of you have felt this way some or even most of the time in your life?
I’m sure all of you just resonated with these feelings in some way shape or form. It’s not a fun place to be in but its a chance for us to surrender. When we decide to dive deep into our being we become more aware of everything within us and around us. The light is just as apparent as the dark. We let go of worrying about controlling every piece of our lives because we know that it will just bring us greater pain. We know that we can’t control other people, our surroundings, Mother Nature etc. We can only control the person we look at in the mirror everyday.
If you’re reading this right now this is your sign to let go. To trust that God will show up and give you something even better than you expected. It’s divine timing not our timing. This is a hard concept to grasp because we all want instant gratification. It’s frustrating especially when we feel that we give and come from our heart space in everything we do. What we have to understand is we all have karma we have to face throughout our lifetime. We are here to evolve as souls. When we choose to honor our truth and not succumb to the limitations we have been taught in society we find a greater purpose from within. We become aware of all the garbage we are filling ourselves with and start to understand why we feel so troubled.
I know it’s hard to process all of this when we don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel, but we just have to trust that the light just might show up tomorrow. All of the things you are worried about might reveal themselves tomorrow. All of the pain you have been dealing with might subside tomorrow. All of the hard work you’ve been putting in might just pay off tomorrow. The love of your life might just bump into you tomorrow.
I know it’s easier said than done but when you look at life like this you give yourself a reason to keep going! You give yourself a reason to keep showing up. You fuel yourself with hope, love, and patience. You motivate yourself to keep striving for what you dream of. You don’t let the setbacks destroy you, they only make you stronger. You are a warrior and you will be rewarded in the end. You will celebrate and look back on your life one day and be so proud because you decided that tomorrow was another chance for success and that everyday after that was to.
Exercise 2
I want you to give yourself a big hug and tell that heart of yours how much you love and appreciate it. We put our heart & body through so much unnecessary pain in our lives due to stress and when it’s all said and done will any of that stress truly matter?
In the end we all want peace more than we want to be right. The ego just loves to battle us.
Say this to yourself:
I have peace, I am peace, I am living peacefully, my surroundings are peaceful, my people are peaceful, I am surrendering my soul to peace across all time, space, dimensions, and reality. And so it is. Written in the universe and signed, sealed, delivered by God and Myself.
Until Next time,
Sending you all Love & Light 🧡